Friday, May 12, 2006

A few days, a lot of thinking

It has been a few days since my last post and I am sorry that they were almost all picture posts.

I have been thinking a lot lately, much of it fueled by being around Mel and some of her blog posts, as well.

Within the past year to year and a half I have had multiple friends tell me that I am "shady" in an inability to commit way. And it's true. I hate being pinned down, even if it means to commiting to plans for a Friday night on a Monday. I can't do it, I just can't. Some say that they think I am holding out to see if something better comes along, but I don't think that is it. Perhaps it comes from my desire not to disappoint people...for example, if I am really tired and just don't have it in me to go out and cancel on someone. I don't feel like I have always been this way, or maybe I have and was just unaware of it.

What is wrong with me?!?!

4 comments:

Lindsay said...

I am that way too, don't worry. It is why I can't make decisions to save my soul. I don't want to commit. I feel like I just want to do my own thing and not have to answer to anyone or be obligated to do something I don't want to do. I can totally relate!

Sanjida said...

Ain't nothin wrong with being shady. Honestly people who commit too quickly freak me out a little. Like why don't they have too much on their plate also? On a side note, you should change your name to Shady Lens. :)

mel said...

i am sorry. i didn't mean to make you think.

Anonymous said...

You sound like you are related to a male who is about 20 months older than you and who makes New Year's Resolutions to be more decisive. Do you know this individual?!